I am sitting at my doctor's offices' waiting room for my post-partum visit. I am a little nervous because he is a new doctor and I tend to be sensitive. Oliver is getting a little fussy so I take him out of his car-seat.
A well meaning lady: I bet he is hungry
Me: Excuse me?
A well meaning lady: I said he's hungry.
Me: Oh, well thanks but I just fed him an hour ago. He just doesn't like his car seat very much.
A well meaning lady: No, I have twins at home. He is hungry or he has a dirty diaper.
Me: OK.
I want to preface this post by saying I know that I don't know everything (or anything) about parenting. I am doing this one day at a time and I do often seek wisdom from people I trust.
I remember one time I posted on facebook while I was pregnant that I was anemic. I got chastised saying how dangerous that is for my baby, like I intentionally didn't get enough iron in my diet. I decided from then on I would be careful enough about what I posted so that I wouldn't be so vulnerable.
Despite being on the quiet side, I am naturally a vulnerable person; however, being a mom comes with a lot of insecurities. I am not going to even justify being insecure as a mom because I have to believe every mom goes through that.
I thought about posting my struggles on this blog. Anytime I talk to friends/families of other moms with babies about my baby's age, I hear they are going through similar issues, and it helps. And maybe I could help other mothers...
And then I think back to the lady in the waiting room and the lady on facebook and I think... nah, I will just stick to the trusted few.
By the way, I have debated back and forth as to whether or not I am going to post this. Talking about being vulnerable is being vulnerable.
To quote a different movie: "...you have chosen well...". Everybody will always have something to say about whatever you do!
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