Over Christmas break, Aaron and I took advantage of being with family and having built in baby- sitters by going to see Star Wars. We chose to forgo dinner for the healthier option of movie snacks and pretended to be movie critics while watching the previews. It's nice to pretend that we have the ability to watch all of these movies. Then, on the screen, was a warning slide telling us to look for any suspicious behavior. I suddenly got a wave of memory from every news article talking about mass shootings. By the end of the movie I was crying. I couldn't stop staring at the exits or gripping my seat every time someone got up.
Ever since I became a mom, I take current events personally. I have always been sad for victims of tragedy, but it means more to me now. I wish I could guarantee my son a happy, long, safe life. I wish there was a sure formula, but there isn't.
I have not been diagnosed with anxiety, but I am putting this out there because I haven't seen any other posts online about moms being more affected by current events.
What helps me? Prayer. After the movie theater episode, I went into the room we were staying in and just vented to God. I cried and told Him everything I was feeling, and afterwards, I felt such a peace come over me.
There are a lot of verses that help but this one in particular comes to mind.
2 Timothy 1:7
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but one of power, love, and sound judgment.
It may or may not have been used in VBS a couple of years ago...
That episode in the movie theater was the worst it's been for me. Anyone else become more affected by current events?
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